Time rules

Time doesn't wait for us

The clock doesn't stop ticking

The sun still rises every morning marking a new day... 

Waiting and dreaming is such a waste of time!

I can make a mess, like nobody else

It has been 53 days since I changed my status.
Maybe I should really consider deleting my Facebook account.
Is my boss happy with my performance?
Is it time to move on?
What the hell do these Germans want?
Hmm, I want to play Black Flag soon on the PS4.
When am I going to buy that damn PS4 already?
So many money issues lately... I really need to get on top of that.
It's sunny and cold today... at least it's not raining.
I had such a great weekend actually, must re-do again.
Did I pay all the bills?
When is the next public holiday? Damn! Not until November 1st ...
But wait, I am taking my holidays in exactly 37 days...
It's no damn holidays! Who am I kidding.
I miss Mona, it's so much more fun when she is around...
Today is my interview... But honestly, I have no motivation for it.
At least I still enjoy, occasionally, my job.
It does pay well to be fair.
And I have the car.
When am I going to finally learn how to drive properly?
Yeah, I said, October.
It will rain in October, not very good to drive in such slippery roads...
Next summer? What a joke.
Am I going to be ok? I mean, is it going to get better?
I want a baby.
And I want that tattoo. I feel I will not get it.
When am I going to finish that book? I should really take some time for it.
I miss this.
I didn't watch my favorite show in ages.
I wonder if he is becoming stronger.
I want some real holidays... next year maybe.
Well, back to work.

Chronicly quiescent

In this age of information and misinformation, of extremes and contradictions, of abundance and dearth... I cannot help it but find myself out of context and out of place.

The quickness and slowness of life as I know it is barely livable.

I think it is beyond what we are, what we can be, achieve or not, move or not... so many things, so little time, and so much time as well. 

I can barely survive 10 minutes without doing something, that will bore me in less than 5 minutes. We are in the middle of such a life crisis. Living but never satisfied, with the certainty that we will never be. Happiness is simply summarized in a formula that recently have been found by some bored mathematicians, or by articles showing us the top 10 things happy people do or never do. It has reached intolerable levels. We have finally come to the conclusion that we will never be happy, that it is over, that it cannot be changed. We have become fatalists. Whatever fate gives us, we will take. We have become tired of struggle, of trying... We have become, globally, addicted to consumerism of giving up, of taking it all in. We are now ready to buy the feeling of powerless content. That is it, giving up is the only provider of peace of mind, because from all the unfits of this world, we are not the 1% , not the 99%. We are the 100%. All unfit. All continuing to be static.

Motionless.

Una palabra

I miss that feeling

From another time

From another life

A life I didn't live, but past

Escape

I miss having a roof.

You know, when you feel disgusted by the world and what it carries.. When you feel suffocated and you have that urge to escape...

I miss that. Going up and just breathing. Looking down at the world and feeling seperated from it.

I don't have a roof.

And you are not winning, you are failing.

And so am I. 

From sadness to anger then back again

You make me feel very sad sometimes,

And you don't even notice it.

Odds of gain x value of gain

I can never win.

So I have decided to become someone else.