The first to forget is the happiest

Pride will make you strong

But not happy.

If not for honour, then for what?

"Stars never fall for men"

Nor destiny does bow for us.

Honey, let's be adventurous!

I was watching the movie "Last Vegas" yesterday. I will skip the talk about how brilliantly funny it was and how De Niro and Freeman surprised me in their roles. I will speak instead about this woman above, or more precisely, her character in the movie.

I felt absolutely refreshed that an empty nester at that age can still have fun and enjoy life, not only as much as younger people, but even more! I still have a long way to go to reach that stage in life, but I do feel exalted that I actually CAN. At any time of my live.

Thank you for reminding me of the joy of life.

SU&MO

Motivation is so easily killed nowadays. People are ready to give up very quickly... And I am one of them.

We are asked for our opinions although the final outcome would be for them to be ignored. Listening to what people have to say is no longer the point. It is a mere protocol, something that has to be done for the formality of it.

No more space for individuality neither. Let us all be a copy of each other. 

People thank the inventor of the famous "ctrl+c" and "ctrl-v", but I CURSE him for starting this melting pot attitude.

But hey, life goes on... And with a smile, I Shut Up & Move On... Just SU&MO!

ما نحتاجه وما لدينا - What we need and what we have

This is your "Hi" and "bye" policy materializing:

This is what I wish my policy was:

But this is what my policy ends up being:

And the saga continues, let's see who is happier.

Heart beat

Life is such a mystery, isn't it?
Every time we think we have never been better, something of course happens.
Peaks are a reality of life. In economy, in politics, in history... Always ups and downs.
Always.

What I have learned is to appreciate it. It sucks but what can I do?
After all, it is when it goes down that we value the good moments.

Be positive!
It's like a heart beating, when stagnant that means that you are dead.

The love of knowledge and the knowledge of love

For Love.

That cursed me.

Then saved me.

For Knowledge.

That saved me.

Then cursed me.

Facebook pain!

I was checking out Mashable this morning and I found that article on why people should delete their Facebook account. One of the reasons was low self-esteem. And this is what it said:

"One study shows that Facebook users (especially females) feel more body conscious by looking at friends' online photos. More than half of the 600 study participants said that looking at others' online albums left them wishing for the same body or weight as the person pictured -- creating more negative feelings than a fashion magazine might stir up."

With a heavy heart, I have to agree with this. Not necessarily linked to the body aspect, but it is more linked to the feeling of happiness. We always feel that the grass is greener elsewhere, especially for this generation. Of course, my thinking would be that it's heavily influenced by social media, Facebooks of this world, Instagram and so on. It always feels like others are living "the" life, are happy... or happier. It always feels like they are more beautiful, more accomplished, happier in their couples, and sexier (bimbo attitude and so on). And it does make me feel more miserable, as I don't see my life as pink as I think others' have.

Positive memories

Such a nice conversation yesterday. It has been a while actually.
Such a lovely day yesterday in all ways.

Enjoyable moments indeed.

Torn a part

Am I giving you more importance than you deserve?

Again, actions are more important than beautiful empty words.

Your empty words were there but you still chose to let me down for other things. Your actions speak the truth, not words.

I have the harshest and ugliest words sometimes, but my actions show it all.

Back to plan B...

Fuck up to learn.. what a life story!

- How to be sure?
- You can never be.
- And what if what I am doing is wrong?
- You only learn when you fuck up.

So is that it?

"From the fear of bondage and the bondage of fear"

I am a worrier who needs to change.

I didn't know I was lost -

Doing as others told me, I was Blind.

Coming when others called me, I was Lost.

then I left everyone, myself as well.

then I found Everyone, Myself as well. 

Rumi

For fear will rob me if I give too much

My heart was moved brilliantly by Alan PATON. For a couple of seconds, my heart felt alive again! Young again! And a flood of emotions pumped as quick as the blood in my veins.

Thank you PATON for the beauty of senses you have offered us:

"Cry, the beloved country, for the unborn child that's the inheritor of our fear. Let him not love the earth so deeply. Let him not laugh too gladly when the water runs through his fingers, nor stand too silent when the setting sun makes the veld with fire. Let him not be too moved when the birds of his land are singing. Nor give too much of his heart to a mountain or a valley. For fear will rob him if he gives too much."

Rain rimes with pain

There is that pain in my heart that I cannot get rid of.

I hear your words, I touched your pain when it was at its peak. I felt it. And I trusted every word.

My pain is from another world. It's the what ifs... Not because I am thinking negatively, but because I want better, and I know we can. 

I can never stop striving for more. That's one of the reasons we are alive. With every breath we should get ourselves closer to the perfection this world can offer. And, if I ever am remembered, I don't want to be the one that changed the world, I want to be the one that is righteous, strong but was there to back up her loved ones. The one that they can count on even if the world let them down. 

For when?

Disturbed

I scratched a parked car today with my car.
I received messages of congratulations.
And we agreed (I think) on this: "And He has put love and mercy between your hearts".

I am about to go check on Mercedes cars.
It's a day filled with a multitude of emotions. So many confusing emotions.
I have difficulties describing what or how I feel.

Sadness after happiness

Am I really that evil that I deserve this bad treatment?